So I've decided that I really need either a second job or one that offers me full time. I haven't been pursuing it too hard because it's not a life or death situation. It's just a matter of extra money.
So today I unsuspectingly get a call from Amazon, one of those full time jobs I'd love to have. It's a full time position that is seasonal. But a top percentage of the seasonal hires get kept on as regular associates.
I should be excited about this. I can quit my retail job, or just work there on weekends. I can afford to put gas in my tank. Blah blah blah.
This is how my mind/body reacts to it instead.
Oh god. I'm trying to go back to school. But they said I need to be available for the training but I think it starts during winter which is when I want to start school.
Oh god. It's only seasonal which can last up to six months. What happens if they don't keep me? I can't afford to lose a job. I can't afford to go back to TJ Maxx with minimum wage. I just can't.
Now I lied to them saying I was completely available.
Oh god should I just not show up for the interview?
Oh god oh god oh god.
...
This is my plan. I'm sticking to it. I swear to whatever that I will not falter from it!
I'm going to go to my pre-interview on monday and tell them "I plan to go to school during this time. Here are my documents. How can we work around this. Is there a part time position available? Also, what are the chances of being kept on as a regular associate? I live on my own and can't afford to lose a job and go back to retail at minimum wage. What can I do."
If I don't get the job, oh well. If I do, then I'll figure it out.
Is it sad that I don't want to leave TJ Maxx because I'll miss certain people to much?
Too bad they can't hire me just to follow the coordinators around and do what they tell me to do.
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